punk rock

i was just wondering about things that i sort of fucked up in the past: for example the shape of my glasses, the joke i said to that girl on the street about people.. just silly. when you try to joke with a complete stranger and it's just not funny for them, but to you.. and when the same thing happens with everyone else as well. these things are relative, but what if you say something to someone at the right time. timing is everything! what if you could go back in time to change these things, to say the right things, the right time, to the right person? would anyone do that at all? would you go back in time just to tell your fathers new girl to go to hell? watch her cry?watch her slowly slipping into a stance where no-one can get her out from? tell the truth about him and her, and how stupid they look together? to refer the future events, what he does to me because of her? that you basically have no father? compared to her disappointment and sadness it would be nothing, if the future father is behaving, of course. but is the father's happiness matters at all? would he act differently if that woman is not on his side? would you feel differently when it comes down to men? you would trust in them just to watch every single one of them letting you down over and over again, just like he did. but is it really the woman's fault? or your daddy's?